Journey with My Passion – Part 4: My Worlds Collide


It has been a while since I wrote about my life shift from full-time corporate type to gentler artistic type.  Wednesday’s event moved me to chime in again on how this journey is progressing.

It has been three and a half months since I took the leap to pursue my pottery calling. In addition to the firing roller coaster, it has been a bit of a physical and emotional rollercoaster.  I have had lots of moments of self-doubt.  I have had many moments of wanting to throw caution to the wind and untether myself from the safety of a day job. I have experienced some odd physical ailments with no evident cause, likely rooted in this massive shift in my life.  And I have had dark moments where I feel that I am living two lives – one corporate, one potter. It is these latter moments that have proved the most difficult.  I would feel confused every time I walked into work or into the studio.  Where was I?  Was I supposed to be here?  Now that I am here, what am I supposed to be doing?  Very disconcerting. But then the worlds that were seeming so separate and at times contrary to each other collided.

This week we had a small holiday art show and sale at work.  We organized it in support of our company’s selected charity – a pediatric cancer research group and to showcase the outside talents of our colleagues.  This was the first time that many of my co-workers were seeing my work.  They had only heard about it, checked out my website or seen the few pieces I have in my office.  The reactions were great.  People loved my pots.  They bought lots of pots. I felt like Sally Fields.

Photo courtesy of Helene Sheeran

I left work that day feeling peaceful and surprised.  The two worlds had quietly converged, even if just for a few hours.  It wasn’t cataclysmic.  In fact, they fit pretty well together.  I left work with the suspicion that there is a lesson in this.  That maybe the worlds don’t have to be so separate and they can co-exist nicely. I can continue to make pots and grow as a potter while contributing to a company with a great mission (and paying the mortgage).  Left and right brain can work equally and harmoniously.  Yes, I like this answer. It is where I am now and in one day, I learned to be content with that place.

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About Claytastic

Health coach. Writer. Teacher. Artist. Living an amazing life with MS. Interested in bringing peace and beauty into people's lives.
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