It has been a while since I wrote about my life shift from full-time corporate type to gentler artistic type. Wednesday’s event moved me to chime in again on how this journey is progressing.
It has been three and a half months since I took the leap to pursue my pottery calling. In addition to the firing roller coaster, it has been a bit of a physical and emotional rollercoaster. I have had lots of moments of self-doubt. I have had many moments of wanting to throw caution to the wind and untether myself from the safety of a day job. I have experienced some odd physical ailments with no evident cause, likely rooted in this massive shift in my life. And I have had dark moments where I feel that I am living two lives – one corporate, one potter. It is these latter moments that have proved the most difficult. I would feel confused every time I walked into work or into the studio. Where was I? Was I supposed to be here? Now that I am here, what am I supposed to be doing? Very disconcerting. But then the worlds that were seeming so separate and at times contrary to each other collided.
This week we had a small holiday art show and sale at work. We organized it in support of our company’s selected charity – a pediatric cancer research group and to showcase the outside talents of our colleagues. This was the first time that many of my co-workers were seeing my work. They had only heard about it, checked out my website or seen the few pieces I have in my office. The reactions were great. People loved my pots. They bought lots of pots. I felt like Sally Fields.
I left work that day feeling peaceful and surprised. The two worlds had quietly converged, even if just for a few hours. It wasn’t cataclysmic. In fact, they fit pretty well together. I left work with the suspicion that there is a lesson in this. That maybe the worlds don’t have to be so separate and they can co-exist nicely. I can continue to make pots and grow as a potter while contributing to a company with a great mission (and paying the mortgage). Left and right brain can work equally and harmoniously. Yes, I like this answer. It is where I am now and in one day, I learned to be content with that place.