I am feeling uninspired. I have potter’s block.
I’m not proud of it, but it happens. I want to make, but when I’m in the studio I don’t know what to make. When I do make, many of my pots collapse.
Why am I uninspired?
In part, I am waiting to get the results from the my upcoming firing on Memorial Day 2010. I have glaze tests and new forms ready for loading and firing next weekend. I’m excited to see how they all come out, how they inspire new ideas and changes to current forms.
In other part, my lack of inspiration comes from my apparent need for urgency. I have four months to my next firing. Even with 25 cubic feet of kiln to fill in mid-September, I’m not driving to get work made. I never realized I had this procrastination streak.
But the big reason I’m suffering from potter’s block is my creative cells are colliding. I’ve written most of my life. This blog was a natural extension of my clay work. But it has inspired my writing cells, which are colliding with my clay cells and right now the writing cells are overpowering.
There are many things I want to write about that don’t fit in this space. So I will be writing a new blog on a different website. It’s not pottery related. It’s more like inspirational personal essay. I’m super excited about this new journey. But until I learn how to segregate my different creative cells (or have them peaceably coexist) it seems that my pottery cells are taking a back seat.
It’s all a bit ironic. For so long I convinced myself I wasn’t creative. But pottery taught me other wise. The confidence I gained from pottery has poured over into my writing (which I had always been interested in, but never gave myself permission to do). I now write for several hours a day (even if I don’t complete much). It’s exhilarating. I am loving it, even though it is hard.
Get in the Studio Anyway
It would be easy to stay out of the studio while I have pottery block. I’ve been contemplating it. This last weekend, I really didn’t want to go. Highly unusual for me. But I get grumpy when I’m not playing in clay. So I went anyway.
After three days in the studio, the tray below is all I have to show for my efforts. Despite the circumstances, I do like it. It’s the largest tray I have made. I still need to work out the handles, but these are getting closer to what I have been envisioning. And while a lot of clay hit the recycle bin in those three days to get to this, I’m glad I stuck it out.
Move Past This
This weekend I am off to write and maybe take a short hike. Then we fire the gas kiln on Monday. By Wednesday I will have my firing results. I will have finished my first two installments on my new blog. I will flip through my sketch book, and maybe add a few ideas. I hope all this accomplishment will pave the way for my pottery cells to come back and work their creative magic.
What do you do to get out of a creative funk?